#300

I didn't have a single panic attack today, not one, my first day on internal medicine. The first day of any rotation is sheer terror, but today I felt...comfortable. Calm, even. And yet I felt as if I knew less than on any other rotation. Maybe it's the time of year and they expect more of us, or maybe it's the rotation, but the expectation is that I know how to manage these patients already, and many times I am seeing these disorders for the first time. It's hard to express properly, but internal medicine feels traditional in a way that every other division feels modern.